Layoffs

11 people were laid off work today.  I realized something was wrong this morning and decided I would read scriptures and pray to block myself from the negative energy I could feel permeating the milieu at work this morning (it worked; I managed to handle everything calmly).  I did all of this before I found out about the layoffs.  I was surprised to hear that Amy Wolters, Carol and Ben were let go.  I thought for sure I would go before Carol due to seniority.  Pat mentioned that due to my skill-set, Spanish and all I contributed to the Study are the reasons why they kept me.  How do I feel about it?....read my blue/brown journal.  I had a Doctors appointment in the middle of the news with Dr. John.  It could not have come at a more opportune time.

Some of the highlights from my session:
1) I mentioned it takes two to tangle and he said, "no, it only takes one to light a fire".
2) I talked about how HR mentioned that my work environment would provide me the opportunity for growth and development.  He stated, "not so, that a negative environment will leave scars and baggage and that if you have the opportunity to leave why stay."
3) I referenced scriptures and said well what about long suffering and charity.  He stated, "Joseph Smith was in Carthage jail, do you think he would have stayed any longer when he was let go because he thought it might do him some good.  He mentioned that scripture was meant for people who were unable to change their situation. 4) He mentioned I have four things going or me: two that were outside of my control (being Hispanic and a woman.  The other two he felt were very valuable: my ability to connect with other people/that I'm so easy to work with and lastly my intelligence (my thoughts on his comments: it was so nice to here those things, because it's been a while since I've heard any positive affirmation like that from a professional).
He also stated that I was a mentally stable, healthy individual and that I would only need one more session to be done (it will only take 3 sessions to deal with work related issues).

Went back to work, got filled-in with the rest of what went on by Pat.  Checked in with my team individually to see how they were doing.  Talked to Ben, gave him a hug and said goodbye.

Bought my dogs some huge bones to chew on (they loved them).

Went to din din with Todd at Firehouse Pizzeria.
Bought sympathy cards and made earrings for Carol and Amy Waltors as a parting gift.

To conclude here are the things I'm grateful for: I'm grateful for my talent to give gifts to family and friends that suit them.  I'm grateful for the deep relationships I have (I feel fortunate for all the people I am able to turn to for support if needed). I'm grateful for Todd and Izzy and Adda.  I love walking the dogs up the canyon where they can be off their leashes.